Living the Questions

anything i've said i might be doing in the near future, i think everyone should simply disregard. i have no idea what i'm doing, when i'm doing it or anything of the sort. so if you ask me what my plans are, my answer will likely be, "i have no idea." my friends, please pray for clarity for me.

i saw this picture online today and absolutely loved it. a bigger version can be found here . you can just feel the passion these two people have for each other. there's so much about it to love. i hope you enjoy it, too. if you haven't heard of garden and gun , you need to check it out. it's a relatively new magazine based out of charleston, sc dedicated to all things southern. "the soul of the new south" is what they're saying about themselves. i'd heard a bit about them, so when i saw it in borders, i decided to check them out. it's worth it, my friends. interesting stories, culture, food, music, a little fashion, some hunting and outdoor adventure stuff -- all based around the south. one of the articles in the issue i picked up was about "the lost confederados" -- the descendants of a group of confederates who left the south after the civil war and settled in brazil. i'd never heard of this, but apparently a lot of southern c...

so, it's been a few days since i last posted, and i've begun to realize that when i wait a few days to blog i have so much i want to (really, that means that i've had a lot happen, and i've thought "i could blog about that") say that it gets overwhelming and so i wait longer...does that make sense? i'm so ready for fall. there's just something about the season that makes it special. football, holidays, cinnamon, cool weather, mmm. i just love it. however, seeing all the fall stuff coming out in stores makes me want to spend money. on clothes, books, candles, music, etc. but especially on baking stuff!!!! fall foods are amazing, and i can't wait to be able to make them :) it's just about killing me having to wait til the season arrives simply for that reason. the other day i was cleaning out my car because when we moved anna out of athens we had left some stuff in the car and i wanted to get everything out before it overtook my car. it was more ...

sleep eludes me. i've not had this problem before, yet i'm in the midst of night 3. it's bothersome.

i started this post yesterday, and it started off with saying that i was just having one of those days....well, things change.... today, i can't say i was doing much better than yesterday. restless, feeling useless (my goodness, i'm not good at this sitting around business...i've done it for long enough), having nothing to do, etc. these feelings have something to do with where i am in life right now -- not knowing where i'm headed or when i'm headed that way and feeling like i'm stuck doing nothing because what if "it" comes and i'm too busy looking at/doing temporary things i'm not supposed to be doing and i would miss it. sorry if that made no sense whatsoever... okay, so in not knowing exactly what my future holds, i've had a lot of thoughts about it and i'm pretty sure which direction i'm heading. when? what i'll be doing? no answers yet, but the where i'm pretty certain about (98 and 3/4% anway -- anyone know the refer...

is what i am....all of a sudden. i haven't done a whole lot today, but i guess i was up later last night than i am usually. i have really wanted to watch phantom for the last couple of weeks, and tonight it was on! gotta love oxygen....but while i was watching it, a commercial for the new pride a prejudice came on and it made me want to watch the bbc version -- the really long one with colin firth....hopefully i can make that happen soon... so....olympics thought of this post....the 26 mile marathon is not very exciting to watch....yet they're showing a whole lot of it...they're halfway through! i know the runners are in excellent shape and all that, but it's a little like watching paint dry to watch them run that long....maybe i just don't appreciate it? good luck to all the marathoners! also, nbc finally showed rowing today! i'm not really sure why i enjoy that particular event so much, but i do and it was on. so i watched some of it. australia, great britain...

so, the other day my mom and i were in the car and were, for some reason that escapes me at the moment, talking about lightning bugs (or fireflies, whichever you prefer). i made the statement that it had been years since i'd seen lightning bugs. we used to see them all the time, but not so much anymore. did you ever run around when you were little and try to catch them? oh, i loved watching them and catching them. i know, i hate bugs, but lightning bugs were different. magical. and they scream summer. when i think of summer and remember things from summers when i was a kid, lightning bugs always pop up. the reason for this post is that tonight on the way to and from a couple meetings at wrc, i saw lightning bugs! not once, not twice, but at least 3 times! it made my heart genuinely happy to know that these summer bugs haven't disappeared. i hope it makes you happy, too. :) in other news, i think there is something wrong with my car. when i stop at lights, the engine doesn't...

ahh, i love reminders.... i've been thinking through a lot in my life right now. mostly because there are things changing -- potentially, but almost positively. i know that's vague , but that's all your getting right now. anyway, some of these changes are big and if you know me, you know i have a lot of trouble with change sometimes. also, i tend to doubt and rely on myself more than i should. so, in thinking about what could happen and where the journey God has me on is headed, when i thought i knew, i was fine.....and then came the doubt. grr....anna described it once recently as a little person that i let come and hang out with me for awhile and then i can't get him to leave....or something like that. yesterday wasn't great for that and today i kind of stalled myself because of doubt and other things. tonight, as i was reading, i came across this verse in Philippians (2:13): "...for it is God who is at work in you..." there's more of the passage, b...

this is the sunset i drove home to yesterday: absolutely gorgeous. i just love it. and yes, i did pull over on the side of the road multiple times to take pictures of it. God's creation is simply amazing. and now, to other topics... i simply love the olympics. well, some of the events. gymnastics, swimming and diving are probably my favorites. rowing, track and sailing are also interesting to watch. but i mostly watch the other three. when i can. i love watching these athletes put their hearts and souls into these events...such passion. women's gymnastics was a little hard to watch last night....team usa was struggling a little.....however, i'm impressed with shawn johnson....she's good :) i have hope they'll finish strong. i was really tired last night, so i dvr'd the swimming and watched it this morning. the men's 4x100m relay was an incredible race. jason lezak had an incredible finish from behind the french team. oh my gosh. my heart was r...

this is me and my sister, doing the graduation thing and taking pictures at the uga arch (because once you graduate, the arch is fair game :)). it would've been up sooner, but blogger and i were having issues uploading pictures..... i've spent the last few days contemplating a lot and i'm not sure what i have to show for it. however, i truly love it when God shows Himself in wonderful ways. i bought a book from barnes and noble that i'm kind of excited to read: max tivoli. there's more to the title, but i can't remember it at the moment. it's about this guy who is born to look like an old man and grows "younger." i think it will be interesting. tonight i'm going to see a movie that will be wonderfully silly and probably amazing: sisterhood of the traveling pants 2 :) thanks to my friend and former roomie becky, i have read all of the sisterhood books. becky loves them and she had them, so i had access to them and read them. when the first movie...

....to say the things we need to say to the people closest to us? maybe it's just me.... on another note....i should be cleaning.... i've also decided that i should make my blog a little more c o l o r f u l and interesting, so i'm going to start putting more pics up....that's the only way i know how to do it right now :)....but if you have ideas about that, let me know! so.....off to clean....another post later (yes, probably today....i lead a boring life a lot of the time). enjoy your day :)

the last few days have been a whirlwind of activity, friends, learning, joy and sadness... first. last night at about 10:30, anna came into my room crying because she had just gotten the news that there had been a car accident involving a couple of friends of ours, miley and hannah. miley passed away in the accident and hannah was in the hospital, pretty injured. although i wasn't very close to miley, i knew both girls, and i know many of their close friends. still, the news hits hard. surreal. i saw these girls wednesday. miley graduated from uga saturday morning, and had just had a birthday. they were driving to new york by way of baltimore and got in some bad weather. my heart is heavy for their families, for hannah, who has lost her best friend, and for miley's close friends. since we got the news, i've been thinking about a couple of things. 1) miley is with Jesus now. here, she was always smiling, encouraging and laughing. i know she's there, smiling and laughing ...

we're taking graduation pictures at the arch today....yay for pics! i'm moving forward in the job search....and that's all i'm saying....for now, at least.... thanks to brandi and sarah for letting stay at their apartment when we were homeless :) more on my visit to athens later... going to get ready to take pictures! enjoy the beautiful (and hot!) day outside :)