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i've written this post off and on in my head many times.
there is, in fact, a draft in the archives from october. 
even now, this post will not be all it should be, but it is what it needs to be for now.

this semester was an especially difficult time. more so than i let on with a lot of people. 
it's taken me places i never really thought i would go, and it's made me think and grow in many needed ways. 
there is, however, a lesson i've been struggling to learn, to internalize, to really live this year (but particularly these last few months). it is a lesson that i've never really learned well, and it is a lesson that i think Someone's been trying to teach me and i simply either haven't been listening, haven't understood, or haven't wanted to learn it. 

that God made me. and He had a purpose in making me the way that i am. 
He gave me specific dreams, desires, and passions for a reason. 
He was intentional in creating my personality and everything about me. 

throughout the day today there were several posts around the internet that dealt with this topic in some way. 
here are a few of my favorites: 


i think maybe, just maybe, God's trying to teach me this in a very pointed way.
and maybe, just maybe it's time to learn it for real.  

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