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what a week

ok, so last weekend was wonderful.
my last post even talks about how wonderful it was.
a great end to a week and a great beginning to another.

and then tuesday came.

between my jobs on tuesday, i was, essentially, t-boned at an intersection.
by a really big truck.
i'm fine. other than being a little sore and bruised, i'm fine.
my car is totalled, however.
driving is not so much fun for me right now...i'm really jumpy on a normal day, so when you add something like this in the mix, i have a problem.

when it happened (well, not exactly when, but later that day), i wanted to be angry. but i couldn't. i couldn't manage to get angry. maybe it's that i was too much in shock by it. but i saw too much Protection in the accident to get angry.
i haven't really had a lot of expressible emotions about it.
there's a lot to figure out and do. finding a new car. dealing with insurance. figuring out how to get to work until a new car can be found. and probably more that i can't remember or don't know yet.


adding to all of that, my emotions and thoughts are all over the place with my friends, my job, what's happening in haiti, and several other things. 

simply put, it's been a very long week. one of my friends asked me the other day what was wrong with me and all i could do was shake my head and shrug.
i have no words.
and no answers.

i don't understand most of what's happening in my life right now.
but i know Who does. and i have faith that He's got a plan.
and i know that He's providing for me and taking care of me.

through my friends who have been there for me, to help or to listen.
with my parents coming into town the week the accident happened.
in the future, with a form of transportation to get to work. and a calming and clarity of my emotions, thoughts, and situations...


i'm sorry for the depressing post, friends.
but it has a happy ending.
God knows.
and He's here with me.
and He's taking care of me.
and He's got a plan.

even when i don't know or understand, God does.
when i can't express what's going on in my heart, He understands anyway.
when i feel alone or overwhelmed, He's with me.
when i can't make it, He'll provide a way.

and that's what's important.
God's right here with me.
and with you.

and He loves us.

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