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strange desires

so, lately i've been having some urges to do things that i don't know that i've ever really wanted to do before.
here's my list...

1) grow my own food
2) or find a way to eat locally/sustainably/ fresh where i am right now
3) grow flowers
4) learn to sew....
5) and quilt...
6) and knit
7) really, really use the amazing library system here
8) make my own bread
9) go berry/veggie picking
10) write letters/ cards to people
11) begin playing (piano, clarinet) again

that may be all...
anyway, it's not that these things in and of themselves are strange. they're all wonderful. i just think it's strange that i'm desiring to do all of these things at once. and why here? i move to the city, where there is almost no space whatsoever for several of these things, and i decide to start making where i live seem more like the country? this doesn't even make sense...
but there you have it.

and actually? i'm kind of excited :)


have any advice/ encouragement/ help? i'd really love to hear it!!

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