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crying....

i'm in a crying mood right now....i'm not really sad, just feel like crying a lot. i haven't felt this way in awhile. on the way to church sunday night, i just started crying thinking about the fact that my kids are leaving on friday. and then i thought about the graduation ceremony...and started crying more. when i saw the sunset, i felt like crying . when i watched prince caspian (or think about the last scene), i tear up. i started thinking about how there is a lot changing in my life right now the other day, and started crying. my heart hurts these days.
i'm not saying all this to make anyone feel sorry for me, just to be open about how i'm feeling...

on another note...
so the other day, one of my kids came in and we had this exchange:
kid: i lost something.
me: oh really? what was it?
kid: it was furry.
me: furry? any other identifying features we should be on the look out for?
kid: it was furry. and purple.
me: did it have ears?
kid: no ears.
me: well, if you see it, you just go after it and catch it. we don't want purple furry things running around.
kid: ok. but it's fast.
me: you can catch it. just go after it. if you see your purple furry thing, go get it, ok?
kid: ok.
( i think the conversation is over, but it's not)
kid: ms. akins....i lost my sanity.
i just laughed :)

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