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a list

of the random things i've been thinking or have noticed.

*there are many things which i wish i knew how to do or was good at. but i don't and i'm not. i do, however, feel this urge within me to be able to do these things and/or have people think i can do them. this creates a lot of different "me's" floating around. i need to accept who i am and not try to be something i'm not. learning.

*i have a bit of an obsession with children's books. as in, when i finally get the rest of my books from my parents' house in dallas, i won't have room on the shelf for them.

*i'm 24 and i still really enjoy disney. and yes, that includes the disney channel.


*i like to organize and have a plan and clean and make sure everything has a place. i am also, however, terribly bad at keeping things organized and clean and putting said plans into motion a lot of the time.

*it's going to be fall soon. how should i celebrate?

*i just rearranged the furniture and books in my room. is it weird that everytime i look at my newly redone bookshelf, it makes me soo happy? also, i think i do things like redecorate and rearrange to avoid thinking about things sometimes.

*i love to read. but often, i don't feel as though i have time to read. i think, though, that sometimes it comes down to simply not having the patience to sit down and read. and i'm just as happy watching a movie or tv. so maybe it's just laziness.

*who i have been, who i am and who i want to be.

*where my strength lies -- or rather, with Whom my strength lies.

*i love season changes, holidays, and traditions. love them. can't say enough how much. and sometimes i wonder why these things make my soul so happy.


i think the list is complete for now.
love.

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