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it's been awhile

yes, friends, it has. i apologize to the few of you who actually do read this....we haven't gotten internet at out apartment yet, so i only have sporadic access to the wonderful world wide web. that means my internet communication -- email, facebook, blogging -- is way behind. please forgive me.

so.....last entry i said it was cold and nasty....and guess what? it still is! we had snow mostly all day today and it's turning into ice as the night goes on. i even got a call that school isn't opening til 8 tomorrow. i think this is a big deal for the jcc because i hear that they never close, even when it's bad. and our apartment has some heating issues, so it's like a 20 degree difference between the downstairs and upstairs floors. we have to add layers when we go down and shed them when we go up :) and although i love cold weather (i know, surprising, right? the girl who is perpetually cold loves cold weather.....), i have to say that lately, i've been kind of wishing for spring and warmer weather so i can wear my dresses again. it's just too stinkin' cold to do that right now...

last week, my parents were in town for a visit. my dad had to come up for a meeting and my mom came with. they brought some of my stuff that had been left behind and got to hang out for a few days. it was good to see them, even though it was a short amount of time.

i have something exciting to share with you! well, it's exciting to me anyway...last weekend, the ravens had a game saturday night. because one of our services is on saturday and was going to be right in the middle of the game, we helped the pub where we meet throw a ravens party. it was tons of fun! anyway, i'm upstairs decorating and my parents come up and tell me that mary alice from ace of cakes is downstairs. if you know anything about me, you probably know that i love this show. one of the first things i did in baltimore was go find the charm city cakes building and take a picture in front of it. so, of course i'm excited, but i don't really think anything is going to happen, because i'm certainly not going to approach her and talk to her. well, imagine my surprise when i come downstairs a little while later and my parents are talking to her. and then they introduce me to her! i'll admit i was more than a little embarrassed, but she was super nice and it was a cool experience....and it was my birthday weekend! sometimes it's good to have parents who will talk to anyone :)

have you ever been afraid of or worried about something happening that it almost took over? don't lie....most of us have....well, have you ever been so fearful of something that you took steps to avoid what it is you were fearful of so it wouldn't happen, but those steps you took kind of caused the thing to happen anyway? like a self-fulfilling prophecy (except not a prophecy, i just don't know another word for what i'm thinking...)? anyway....totally been there recently....

i talked a little bit about the beth moore esther (it's tough to be a woman) study i've recently begun. i love beth moore. love her. she's wonderful. and i love that God's using this study in my life in ways that i didn't really think of. there's a lot of stuff i've been dealing with and struggling through lately, and every time i listen to the sessions (which has only been 3 times), it speaks directly to me. for example. each week, we are given a new scenario that will complete the sentence, "it's tough being a woman _______". the second week, the sentence finished with "in a world where beauty is a treatment". i didn't really think a lot of it at the time, but this week, as i was listening to session 3, she reminded us of the scenario and it dawned on me that all week long i was having conversations and interactions with people that reiterated this statement. that's just one example, and a small one at that. this study was just timed so perfectly, in my life, at this time, and i'm so thankful God orchestrated it this way. don't get me wrong. dealing with the stuff in my life is not fun. and it hasn't been fun. but i'm just amazed and grateful that God knew what was coming and put everything (the situations, the stuff, the people, and the study) together the way He did. i love Him.

and i love you.

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