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so.....it's stinkin' cold here.....and really wet and nasty. but in the midst of all the nastiness, there's some beauty. the rain froze to the trees at work last night. all day long, when i looked out the window, i saw the icicles. my very own winter wonderland. and it was beautiful.

most of you know that i'm in my new apartment. we moved in on new year's day. great time to move, right? moving is a bit stressful. no matter how many times i move, i always get stressed out to some degree thinking about everything that has to be done. and while there's still cleaning to be done (does it ever end?) and most of the walls are still bare, i think everything pretty much has a place. which is good, because i was beginning to think it never would be finished. now, to figure out when trash day is so we can get rid of all these boxes....once that's done, pictures will be posted for you to see :)

the kids at work are grabbing my heart more and more. although there are a lot of problems where i work and several of the teachers want to leave, i find myself forming deeper attachments to the kids with each passing day. sure, there are a lot of frustrating moments and a lot of times i wish for something else, but i love the kids. i enjoy hearing "miss brooke" ring out (even when they're whining). i love the hugs and smiles i get to experience and the laughter i hear throughout the day. i like that i'm able to be a part of their lives. sometimes, you just wonder why God has decided to let you be in the position you're in.

and now i'm going to leave you.
with love.

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