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fickle feelings

it's amazing how quickly our feelings can change isn't it?
i'm not talking about feelings in relationships or with friends or anything like that (although, for some people, those feelings change rather quickly as well). i'm talking about how we feel throughout the day.
these last couple of days i have been up and down so often that i'm beginning to wonder if there's something wrong with me :)
you know those days where you just don't feel right? friday was one of those days for me. and it was a pretty good day, all things considered. but i just felt wrong. in lots of ways. one of them being that i felt less like a girl than i have in a long time. is that weird? ladies, please tell me i'm not the only one who feels that way sometimes! but friday night i felt pretty good. and today, it's like a new feeling every hour. good. bad. indifferent. happy. sad. ugh. yay! i mean, it's like i'm on a roller coaster.
i'm not saying this to complain. just to be honest :)
and as i was writing this, i began thinking how wonderful it is that we don't have to live based on our feelings. we don't have to rely on our feelings to tell us who we are or to give us value.
i was reminded that God has already done that. no matter what my feelings are at any given moment, God has redeemed my soul and captured my heart. i am a beloved daughter of the King. and He loves me unconditionally, all the time...even when i feel like nothing is right or when i'm really happy.....He loves me. and that's a wonderful way to live.
in the knowledge that i am special to God and loved by the King of all things.

Comments

Anonymous said…
Excellent post, Brooke.
And, believe me, I know exactly what you mean. I have many days like that.
You hit the nail right on the head by saying that God is who gives us value and is our foundation, instead of our feelings.
I think I'd be super doomed, especially as a woman, if I lived only according to my crazy, erratic feelings.
You are wise, my dear. Thanks for the insight.
December 14, 2008 at 3:02 PM
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