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so, in the last few days, i've decided a couple of things:
1) when i'm living in my own place, i will have really thick towels to use in the kitchen. my fingertips will never forgive me if i don't, because at the rate i'm going, all nerve endings in my fingers will be dead in a couple of years.
2) i really want to start catching up on movies i really should have seen by now, but never have.
3) it's now fall. and i want to go fall shopping.
4) because it is fall (well, it's official next week), i've decided to revolt against summer. i'm lighting my fall candles. baking my fall treats. my car is full of fall-ness, thanks to my autumn wreath scent from yankee candle. and for the most part, i'm retiring my sandals til next spring. i don't care how hot it gets. summer is dead to me til next year.


to stay in the theme of this post, i have a decision to make. what to do with my life. it seems this in an ongoing thing, and makes me feel rather like i should still be in college. aren't i supposed to be mostly done with this for a few years? not this soon.... anyway, i had a decision made. but when things started not happening in that area where i thought they would, i pretty much gave up. got depressed. and didn't do anything about it. now, in the last few days, i've realized that i have a decision to make. and that decision is mine. yes, i'm doing my best to follow God's lead, but if i think i'm being led in a certain direction, it's still my decision to follow or sit still. i've been sitting still. and now it's time to start moving. so move i hope to do. and i'm praying it's much easier this time around. but if it isn't, i'm praying i'll stick to it this time.

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