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venting and other things

the vent (bear with me):
disclaimer: before i begin, i absolutely love the organization i'm going to mention and none of this takes away from that. and because i don' t want anyone to get a bad picture of this organization, i'm not mentioning any names.
i hate money. i hate having to deal with it and think about it and use it and make it....ugh.
because i'm not currently employed for next year, i've been trying to save money this summer in case i need it. i put a lot of my money in savings this month. because of that, i'm kind of low on money right now and have been waiting for my paycheck this month to come in -- which it does this week. i've been keeping a close (i thought) eye on my money to make sure i wouldn't go over what i have....which was plenty 'til i got paid.....
the reason for this post? what i didn't realize was that a $300 check i wrote on JUNE 1 hadn't been cashed yet. $300! i'm sorry, it's almost a month later....that's a little ridiculous. especially since i wrote it to an organization that should be on top of things like that... it's frustrating to have money when you write a check for something and think that it's gone through and that you have enough to get by and then....nope! you thought wrong....
so, while i was checking through my online account to make sure everything else had gone through that was supposed to, i realized that there is another check i wrote (to the same organization, i might add, and for a much smaller amount than the first one) that has yet to go through. it hasn't been quite as long for the first check, but still, a good amount of time has passed.
ok, now, i know that i should have noticed that the check hadn't gone through (both of them), and that part of the blame (maybe all of it) lies with me, but i still think that a place like this one, should be more on top of money like that. a month is a long time for a check that large.
now, due to this unfortunate financial fiasco, most of the money i put in savings this month will have to come out tomorrow to cover my account until i get paid (which, praise the Lord, is friday). so much for planning.

the other things:
the girls in jgroup and alice and i are going to read every young woman's battle together. i've read every woman's battle, but never this version. flipping through it, i was glad to see that they have different material in them (one is about guarding yourself, while the other is about fulfillment -- basically, one is more geared to married women while the other to single women). i was a tad concerned that they would be basically the same book, but they seem to be different enough. i'm excited about reading this and growing through it with the girls, and i can tell that i'm going to get just as much from this book study as the girls are :)

i'm about halfway through my boston scrapbooks.

i'm trying to learn more about how my camera works. what's the point of having a good camera if you don't know how to use it.

i really feel like whatever i'm supposed to be doing next year is right around the corner and will be discovered soon.

i got to read a good deal in a couple of books today :)

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