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two in one day? yes...

ahh, i love reminders....
i've been thinking through a lot in my life right now. mostly because there are things changing -- potentially, but almost positively. i know that's vague , but that's all your getting right now. anyway, some of these changes are big and if you know me, you know i have a lot of trouble with change sometimes. also, i tend to doubt and rely on myself more than i should. so, in thinking about what could happen and where the journey God has me on is headed, when i thought i knew, i was fine.....and then came the doubt. grr....anna described it once recently as a little person that i let come and hang out with me for awhile and then i can't get him to leave....or something like that. yesterday wasn't great for that and today i kind of stalled myself because of doubt and other things. tonight, as i was reading, i came across this verse in Philippians (2:13):
"...for it is God who is at work in you..."
there's more of the passage, but this is the part that stuck out to me. through the doubts, God spoke to me. He is at work in me. i'm His. and He is working. so, with all the changes, no matter what the end result of them is, as long as i do my best to seek Him and His will, i can rest in the knowledge that He is at work in me. He is in control. and He loves me. Oh, how He loves me!

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